learning

It has been awhile since my last post. Nearly two weeks. Times are fairly good now. The last couple of days, it has been difficult to find intimacy with God, but that is only because of a lack of persistance on my part. One important thing I have been learning is that I have to have faith that Jesus is who He said He is, and more importantly, can do what He says He can do. Obviously, this is plain and simple; but I often find myself ignoring this truth. I must believe that he can not only deliver me from the consequences of my past sins, but as a new creation in Christ, sin no longer has the same grip on me as before. I am not saying that I live without sin, but we know it is possible to live in this exact moment nearing the life that Jesus wants us to live. Nobody's looking for or expecting perfection, but it is within reach for us to follow Christ in this moment. Paul said that if he sins, then he knows that it is sin living within him, not he that sins. That is why we must put our flesh under the submission of the new creation. I continually pray that I will have the faith that Christ is my deliverer and conquerer.

I am way behind for the lebanon trip. I should ask God if it should be a bigger priority...although I think I already know the answer.

I am embracing Chanute more. I am starting to see that He does have a plan even if I don't have the wisdom to acknowledge it. I am finally optimistic about what God can accomplish here and now I realize I shouldn't have been apathetic to it.

I bought Lion, Witch and the Wardrobe. It was expensive, but it is one of my favorite movies. Watched it with a couple of the athletes and did my best to keep from tearing up... especially in the scene where Aslan is about to die.

Lent is almost over. For about half of it, I ignored the main idea behind it. That is, when I feel like eating a burger or logging onto facebook, I need to remember that I am doing this in remembrance of the forty days our Lord spent in the desert without food or water. I need to remember that I am "crucified with Christ."

I am nearly addicted to Waterdeep. In the last three weeks or so, I have found much of the music I used to listen to somewhat depressing. The last few weeks I have pretty much only listened to Waterdeep, which is amazing, considering that before Ryan gave me that cd, I had barely even listened to anything by them. But the buzz I think is slowly wearing off.

That about wraps it up. I pray that God gives me strength and grace for this next week, but also focus. That I may not get wrapped up into affairs that keep me from looking to Him.

-skolnick