Thursday, March 30, 2006

Well. My spring break is over. Back to coaching and recruiting and being an RA in the middle of nowhere. But it really is not all that bad. I believe it was the first time ever that I wanted to come back here instead of staying in Norman. Frankly, April might be the first month ever without visiting Norman, and I really do not mind. And although it was not exactly an easy thing to go through God has given me the grace to walk me through it. He has shown me that I may harbour bitterness that seems unrecognizable from the outset, but can lead to death. He has shown me that I relied too much on my relationships in Norman as opposed to my relationship with Him. I found that, when I am in any kind of relationship, I should do my best to include Him in everything I do. "Seek first the kingdom," which I have not been doing lately. I do have faith that he will turn this situation into something even better than what He already has. I thank God that He can put me in a place where I can be led entirely by Him.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

my first entry

well. not to be redundant, but this is my first entry on a blog. I started this because I have a lot of free time, and I need to practice my writing skills. I've been here in kansas since august; that's about seven months of exile. I call it exile, but it's not nearly that bad- I still get to go back to Norman about once or twice a month. But it feels like exile. I don't get to see my friends too often; and I have felt disconnected from the world more often than I would like. Still, I do believe that God is working something in me- and I think that, in the end, it will be worth it. I suppose I am nominally concerned over who will be reading this, but I have resolved not to tell anyone about it, so for now it is mainly a personal thing. I was tempted to tell one of my friends about it the other day (yesterday). And that's pretty bad considering that I had not even posted anything yet. I try to thank God for His mercy and ask for it every day. Wisdom is also something I ask for a lot. The team is doing alright, and I am interested to see how much improvement can be made during outdoor season. I still need to get my passport, but I will probably wait until spring break. Hopefully, I will be able to keep myself from making transmissions of this nature in the future. This isn't meant to be another personal journal; I would like it to be more like a place where I can talk candidly, but not necessarily about my own experiences. That's all.